Update:

I have a new boyfriend, and he is loving and sweet and gets me off for sure

But I don’t think fucking me and abusing me go hand in hand for him. And it’s not that he doesn’t want to or is scared, he just doesn’t think it’s what he would want. I think throwing him around would be delightful, but I like to submissive and told what a good slut I am. I feel like we will be together for a while, so maybe he will learn. I hope so. I want to be spanked and slapped across the face. I just want to be a little whore for him and be his sex slave but he’s not into that really. At least he’s eager to learn and not completely close-minded.